i'm thinking of you
day and night
even though you don't speak a word
your voice is still in my head
do you know i think of you everyday?
do you even know my love for you?
today was a bad bad day 4 me... feeling quite unwell at wrk. sales was bad to e extreme. dunno why i suddenly cry when typing tis post.... look like is another break down again. i really wan to 4 get him n everything. i love him n miss him ... is normal 4 me to do so rite????? :'( :'"( :''''( aaaaarrrrrrhhhhhh. I'M REALLY STRESS STRESS STRESS!!!! PLS HELP ME LA... SIANZ...... i miss everything of him.. really every single ting he does n say everyday. but now all i can do is c all e photos we took n kept it deep in my heart ... i really wish tat i can cry out loud but i cant my parents slping... (Baby... i love u b4 n even now...though i cant be e fortunate gal to love n be wif u ... i hope tat u r living happily now . i love u wif no regrets... )
no words can express
my love for you
Sunday, August 20, 2006
5:15 PM
Yesterday marilyn came over my hse to have red wine... after which went over to her fren hse 4 mj session.. wow veri tough game.. cos i'm e only gal player n all were guys ... all younger by us by 1 2 yrs old. Stress game.. in e end i lost from $15 to $7 man. I was lucky to save myself from losing more... heard tat he was sick hope tat he will get well soon... missing him pretty badly. After tis few months i tot my love could have fade away as e time passes by... but i dun tink so ... i'm really tired of my life... i doesn't seems to be able to find my goal n wat i wanna do .... oh man... why... why... why... i did lots of tinking but all to no vail... i really want him back to my side.. i will shower him wif more love care n stuff... but 1 veri sure ting i know tat is impossible as he said it b4 tat he wont de. N tat he treats me as a sister...n also tat even 1 day he's back to me even i still love him as much, i cant go back to him cos i know 4 sure tat i'm gonna lose all my sis n frenz if i patch wif him. Do u all know tat i'm so afraid to be alone n tat i wanna a shoulder to cry on... i went doc e other time n doc said tat i might be getting slight depression...sian....got to take some pills again. I really hate it man... everyday eat so many pills..... why why why all tis stupid tings all happen... Luckly ... i have my sis n bros to give me support n help me... if not tink my depression was worst n i couldn't even tink tat i'll get well like now. in some way or another .. i'm luckly to have a bunch of veri clos en best sistas n bros n frenz... who loves me n care 4 me.... thanls a millions
no words can express
my love for you
Friday, August 18, 2006
12:32 AM
mood 4 today was quite gd... know wat... hehe... i dunno how come i manage to find a few of my long lost frenz in my early teens in frenster.... i really must thanks frenster although i always complain too laggy n stuff...:) if not i dunno when will i get to meet or see them again... happy to see all doing well.... really must try to arrange to meet up soon soon... hehe...:) My dearie sista joyce called up n chated 4 a while... i'm so happy 4 her as to see n hear tat ur bf treating her gd... all e best to u sis...
no words can express
my love for you
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
11:27 PM
Yeah!!!Back home from work le...finally off tml n thurs... Yesterday,meet up wif my darling sista... (amelia). She came over to j8 n we went 4 dinner.. ate e delicious beef noodle... so yummy!!! Now waiting to see my another darling joyce... she now so in love wid her beloved dear... hehe:) shall plan e day soon... Today was quite busy wif wrk.. not bcos sales was gd but came in lots of new arrivals... can die!!! fold n pack those apparrels....My mum oso off tml n was suggesting to go 4buffet lunch atHISwrk place...OMG!!!i sayNO NOto her n say go other restaurants as i dun dare to c him... dunno why la... aaaarrrrr!!! Its driving me crazy.....
no words can express
my love for you
Stress stress stress!!!! OMG!!i'm only on pal wif my target how ar.... jia lat liao... tis month sales must be gd gd de leh... if not i next month surely get scolded de.... worry man.. i also wanna go 4 holiday even if is a nearby trip... hey sistas pls save up ok all go together ok ok ... k la... me go slp le... my sistas n staffs r complaining tat i'm a panda liao.... tata... meet up soon or call me okie...:)
no words can express
my love for you
Thursday, August 10, 2006
4:51 AM
Jus back from meeting a fren... Heya...sorry u all must ne bored wif my blog always say abt my past rs.But tis is e onli way i can write or say say out my feelings.I'm not like others who write out or say abt happy or unhappy stuffs. In here i can throw out my feelings...hope u all dun mind okie... sorry ok... hope u all understand thanks ...Dunno y recently i'm unable to get to slp regardless how tired i am. It's so irriating when u r so so tired n cant slp.... (pissed off wif myself). Recently feeling quite moody n sad... proably over tat gal n guy tingy... tot i have let go but realise i din let everything off... when can i totally 4get him... i really do love him n miss him badly..Y did all tis happen... i really wish to turn back time...something must be veri wrong wif me tat's y he 2 time me... i hate her... i really do... she knew tat we're att y cant she wait 4 him to break of wif me den they start... they have hurt me so so deep. E moment i tink of them having sex behind my back my heart ache n i feel so scary... its like a bad nightmare. I'm feeling so pain... crying now... after so long i din cry maybe crying out makes me feel better. loving him was so tiring tot tat since break le i can feel better but its even worst.. loving n hating sumone is so tiring but still i love n hate him... y is it like tat ... Crazy me rite... Recently... all my sistas busy wif work or bf.. seldom meet up like we use to be... hmm.. missing them so much my dearest sistas meet up soon okie... now all att le.. tink i must find a guy too.. hehe:) proably not now ba... haven 4get him n i dun dare to start a rs. phobia man... hope tat e next 1 coming on my way can be gd n true to me lor... dam tired wrking now... looking 4 jobs any job vacants let me know ok....ohh... one last ting....
TO THOSE WHO KEEP ON SAYING OR SPREADING ABT ME N HIM, I HOPE U ALL CAN PUT A FULL STOP TO IT . WHETHER U TINK IS MINE FAULT OR WAT I DUN CARE COS I KNOW I DID NOTHING WRONG. U ALL HAVE EYES TO SEE WHO'S GD N BAD. I'M TRYING TO 4GET N STAND UP FAST,N ITS OVER 4 SO LONG I HOPE U ALL DUN BRING TAT MATTER UP N SPREAD BAD TING ABT ME... I'M SO TIRED OF HEARING TAT . IT REALLY MAKES MY HEART BREAK EVEN PAIN N WORSE. THANKS.
no words can express
my love for you
im waiting for the day.
STELLA
09/04/1985
21
BAYSHORE_LING@HOTMAIL.COM
for you to tell me.
#1hobbies LOVES TO SING
#2hobbies CLUBBING
#3hobbies COLLECTING ASTRO BOY STUFFS
#4hobbies BEING WIF MY SISTAS & FRENZ
#5hobbies SHOPPING
that you love me too.
#1wish FOR NOW I JUS WISH TO HUG
#2wish BE 2GETHER WIF MY SISTAS
#3wish TO SEE BABY DARIUS
#4wish HMM... SHALL C WAT MY OTHER WISH....LET MI TINK...
#5wish